flight is in about 5 hours time.. there is part of me that is excited and cant wait to get there.. a part of me wanna stay and just slack.. haha.. starting to feel paranoid in a way.. cant believe i reacted the way i did.. super bullier.. haha.. anyways.. my luggage feels light.. hope to buy lots of stuff.. how exciting can this be.. and there is a long list of gifts too.. oh my.. need to crack my head again..
melie
6:53 pm
Friday night marks the start of my long awaited holiday. After i finished my last documentation and settled all my little ones for handover.. i felt a sense of relief.. in a way, there was a feeling of disbelief that i was going on AL and i'm really going to get a break. been quite tired ever since a month back.. prepared for event and then my talk and then my test.. haven had a good day rest until today!. well.. woke up to pack my luggage.. haven been home much the past few days either.. had meetings, meet ups, ktv sessions and just spending time with w. oh well.. i'll be spending my next 2 weeks with my parents anyway.. all day long.. haha.. east coast of usa and canada here i come!
melie
3:28 pm
these few months has been really blissful..
i cannot thank him more
for now being part of my life
writing a new chapter with me
thank you
for understanding
for being sensitive
for always being there
your little gestures everyday
brings joy
laughter
comfort
it's a future
that we never know what to expect
but i am glad
i have you with me :)
melie
10:31 pm
i've been sort of sick these past few weeks.. down with urti and fever.. then when i finish my first round of meds.. went to office to get more meds.. only to find out that my heart has murmurs?? haha.. doc say it maybe some viral affected so maybe after 6 months i haf proper functioning heart.. haha.. oh well we'll see when i go and check it out with the specialist.. with the sickness.. goes the record of no mc for this year.. was so reluctant to take it.. but the fever didnt subside and i was in no condition to work. oh well.. at least i got to slp slp slp.. been breathless these few weeks also especially after i walk fast or climb up slopes.. sometimes it feels lik i can start hyperventilating out of the blue.. hmmm.. hope all these symptoms will go away soon..
cant wait for my holiday at the end of the month.. 2 weeks off to the other side of the globe.. east coast of usa and canada.. yippee.. so looking forward to it.. and then me becomes older.. haha..
and life probably just gets better :) thank you
melie
11:29 pm
i wish i can rush to your side now
give you a big tight hug
let you cry your heart out
take care of you like how you did for me
listen to you pour your sorrows out
i wish you didn't have to be alone
not right now at least
not eating sleeping or doing things well
just crying and thinking about the problems alone
i wish to give you strength
to hold on a few more days
till you come home where you will be protected
just a little bit longer my little brother
we'll go through this together
as long as we need to
melie
2:02 pm
there are some things which you wish you could say at times..
but
maybe the time is not right yet
maybe the words just dont come out right
maybe saying it out wouldnt help in anyway
what if that person is
a person you trust
a person you can rely on
a friend
melie
1:59 am
it's been a long time since i ever felt this way ba..
that carefree feeling..
that indescribable feeling that lightens the heart..
sometimes you are up in the sky floating with the wind
sometimes you are just relaxing on a comfortable couch
or maybe
sometimes just tuck under the covers enjoying the warmth
it has always been great
to have someone to turn to when i'm sad
to have somewhere to return to after a long day work
to have something to do when i'm bored
to have some time alone to just love myself
how do we move further from where we are
how do we tell the right from the wrong
how do we love the people we care for
how do we live the life we choose
melie
1:03 pm
